i tink i contradict myself way too much..

my mind knows what i am supposed/should do but my heart tell me otherwise..

i dont know why i am always not firm enough..
really hate ppl stressing me about my job searching every now & then..
now that mama has resigned pressurized me even more..
& my taiwan trip in May makes it even harder for me to look for job..
i am like hanging in mid air, neither here nor there.
damn!! why must so many things happen at the same time?
what i planned didn't happen & what i didn't foresee just had to happen..tsk..
so now wat? i really dont know, only can take one step at a time & see how..
hopefully things will work out when the time come. :(

hope. wiish. pray.

突然觉得好累好累，有很多东西很想说却只能对自己说。