Friday, May 28, 2010
met love at cine in the afternoon..
we watch sex & the city 2..rushing like mad cos we were late..HAHA
nt bad & quite funny :)
though the duration is 146 mins..
but somehow it passed quite fast..
meaning the show nt boring..haha
aft movie, we went far east & shopped awhile b4 gg to ion for hk cafe..
nice & full ^^
home sweet home aft dinner..
seriously hope we can go taiwan tgt soon..
ahh..i wan go nowwww..sian..
anyway, badminton with andy & frens tml..
somehow u jus left mi speechless..
u jus shown mi how childish ur thinking are..
thanks for letting mi noe how much close frens meant to you..
& tis is nt the 1st time..totally disappointed..
suddenly i felt like i had so many things to do but so little time.
vex ttm..haix :(
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Thursday, May 27, 2010
went suntec with andy in the evening to go for the YOG e-learning thingy..& saw dearest shuang there!! haha..
super happy can =D
cos intially wanted ask her wan join anot..
but tot she wont be able to cos she will be busy..
nxt time confirm will ask her le..
HAHA..but we nt in same group..
nvm..we can go for training tgt..
so aft we r done with the registration, the 3 of us went Aston for dinner..
& the queue was -.-
waited for quite long b4 we gt table & oso quite long for the food to be served..
there really nt enough ppl..haha..
by the time we finished our dinner is ald 9 plus..haha..
take circle line back with shuang while andy went back suntec..
& will be meeting her again tml...
yeah..movie!! =)
cya tml dearest..
nitex!!
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Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Exam is officially over..yeah!!
but i tink i screwed my MA..
totally duno how to do..sian =(
really hope can get a pass...
now i hope sep wont come..HAHA..
gt to start looking for temp job now..
cos i dun wan rot at home & i need $$..
shall enjoy tis week 1st =D
& i love the feeling of waking up tis morn & realise tat it's over..haha..
weather is hot like hell la..
y 33 degree & 34 degree diff so big??
when 33 degree still okay..
but when it hit 34 degree, totally cannt stand the hotness..
is like only 1 degree diff lox..
ps: pornsak is cute!! =D
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Friday, May 21, 2010
sometimes things jus doesn't happen the way we want..the more we want things to happen, the least they will happen..
so i guess letting nature takes it course will be the best..
no doubt sadness & emo-ness will set in..
but i have started to believe tat happiness is a decision..
thus i have decided to be happy..
& i noe tis is wat u wan from mi..
so i promise i will try my best to be =)
anyway, 4 more days to MA..
i cant believe time passes freaking fast when slacking lox..
though there's abt a week plus for mi to study..
but i din really study the past few days..
it felt as if exam is over..
had been leading a carefree week..
& i feel damn guilty now..sigh~
okay..gonna slp now & wake up earlier to STUDY!!!!
TATA! :)
memories will still be kept in mi...forever =D
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Thursday, May 20, 2010
20th may 1999 (the day i dread most)
11 yrs ago..u left us w/o a word..
i was nt prepared at all..maybe cos i was still young..i was only 10..
i still rmb vividly the unwilling-ness on ur face when u were forced to go to the hospital..
u were holding on to the gate so tightly, nt wanting to go...
but then mum & cousin insisted so u gt no choice..
u cant even walk properly & needed their help..
that's the last time i talked to u & saw u...
i was alone at home then..at a loss, crying while looking out of the window till the car was out of sight..
those scenes...i dun tink i will ever forget...
tat night, mum came back from the hospital..thinking tat u'll be alright...
i still think i would be able to see u the nxt day..
but in the middle of the night, we gt a call from the hospital saying u were in serious condition..
she woke us up & we rushed to the hospital..
in the car, on the way to the hospital, mi & sis were still blurred of wat was happening...
while at the hospital, the doc told us that ur heartbeat had stopped a couple of times & u might nt make it thru the night..
he told us to be mentally prepared...that's the 1st time i saw u at the hospital..& also the last time...
mum said u were ald unconscious when u were at the hospital..& u never regained from it...
at the ICU, i saw u lying on the bed with so many tubes on...
& a few hours later, u really left us...w/o any word or seeing us for the last time..
i still rmb-ed i cried so hard tat i was vomitting at the same time..
since then, our life changed..like totally..
life aint the same anymore....
thinking back, i had nt been a great daughter...
mi & sis only noe how to bully u..
cos u were tat patient with us, never once lay a finger on us even when we were naughty..
i rmb whenever we were forced to be kissed by u, we will hit u cos ur moustach would always pricked us..
i rmb i was scared of dark & always need the living room light to be on when sleeping...
but whenever u came home, u would switch off all the lights..
& then if i hadn't slp, i would jump out of my bed immediately & scolded u while switching the lights back..
everytime u would jus let us had our ways..i noe that's how much u doted on us..
once, i was searching thru our whole collection of photo albums, wanting to find any photo taken with u..
sadly, i could only find 1 with u, mi & sis..when we were still veri young..
i cant even find 1 with mum in it..y didn't we took more photos? sigh~
honestly, 10 yrs with u were really nt enough..
u seriously missed a large part of us growing up..
& it's a regret that i wont be able to treat u better...or to even provide for u when i start working in future..
we din even go overseas together as a family b4...okay except for m'sia..
there were like so many things we didn't manage & wont had the chance to do together le..
now..11 yrs later..i am 21 ald..how times fly..
there were still lots of misses..
i missed u fetching mi to sch every morn..
i missed u forcing to kiss mi everytime..
i missed u bickering & arguing with mi..
i missed u singing "妹妹抱着洋娃娃" to us whenever we were upset with u..
i missed u trying to defend us whenever we were punished by mum..& ended up being scolded too..
i missed u bringing us to serangoon garden to have the famous chicken rice..
i missed u bringing us to serangoon north to see those birds & pets...& it's amazing tat we are staying at serangoon north now :)
dearest 老豆 (yes, tat's how we addressed him. i duno why.)
there are so many things i wanted to tell u..
i love u...& u noe i will always do =)
though i dun show it, i have the emotional side of mi too..
i am just a human aft all..
i still misses u alot though i seldom mention abt u..
i really hope u'll continue to bless us..esp mum..
her health hasn't been tat good since the operation...
i am really scare of having the same thing happening again..
the fear in mi is totally undescribe-able & nobody will understand...
but i know u will....
wow..din realise i had typed such a long entry..wonder how i even manage to do it...
pls dun ask mi if i am fine aft reading tis entry..cos i will be lying if i say i am...
i jus need some time alone..& i promise i will be okay soon...
ps:i am jus missing u......badly :(
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Saturday, May 15, 2010
am nt in good mood today :(
hurt & disappointed..
perharps i really took it too hard..
but it's over le...
so everything shall end here..
will nt tink abt it anymore..
felt much better aft my long nap...
was damn tired..& unwell...
anyway, had cinnamon melts at mac the other day..
wanted to have it since long ago..
not as nice as i had expected..
& really too sweet le..haha..
went the helix on thur...nice place..
but the weather was too hazy..
so scenery nt that nice..plus too many on-gg constructions le..
shall go again next time..haha :)
10 more days to last paper..
looking super forward...& i can smell freedom...
whoot~
i noe i can never do enough..
but at least i tried..
if u're still ard, maybe life wont be wat it is now =(
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Sunday, May 09, 2010
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TO ALL MOMS!! =))esp to my mama..
though we will have arguments & diff opinions at times, u noe i still ♥ you!! :)
pls continue to stay healthy okay...loves~
anyway, past few days were exam days..
but CF & Macro were.........duno wat to say..
esp CF..i spent so many days to memorise all the facts, yrs & stuff but in the end din really come out..wth!!
for macro is really duno wat i writing..haix..
i only noe i keep repeating those diagrams & theories for some qns..
oh my..tell mi wat to do..wat to do?? damn sad..
really hope can get a pass pls..jus a pass will do :(
i dun wanna retake..
math 2 was okay..but okay only la..
now 3 down & 2 more to go..
i hope stat 2 & MA wont be like tat..
but MA i super no confident luh..
though i will have 12 days in betwn b4 the paper..but dun tink tat help..
really hate accounting! i wont choose anymore acc units le..
there is financial intermediation nxt sem & i tink sure die..
cos there's no calculations..all theories..sian..
wat's wrong with the weather??
tot it rained heavily? y no use..
i started to feel the hotness once i bathe finished..
& i woke up with sweat EVERYDAY!! argh..
wat happen? is the world dying??
give some hints b4 it realli happen okay..haha..
now i wan an air con soooooo badly :(
Labels: mother's day
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Sunday, May 02, 2010
save mi!! time is running out =(3 more freaking days to CF papers..
had been studying like no day no night for the past week or so..
i duno know how much i had absorbed honestly..
i only noe my brain is full of corporate finance theories..
seriously hope they can stay in there till wed..
tried studying macro today since aft CF paper will be macro the nxt day..
but i really cant cram in anymore stuffs le..
i need a bigger brain luh..& no time for macro le..sigh~
aft fri will be more relaxed le..
fri faster comeeeeeeeee~
& the heat is really killing mi tis few days can..
so hot & humid..
how to concentrate & study?? argh!!
pls rain leh :(
i am hooked to 郭静's new song..haha
encore la la encore encore la la..
so cute luh :]
i will be rationale tis time..
cos i noe i had to..
i promise~
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