Why has it got to be me again?! WHY!!!! :(
So wat if I am the eldest? If that's the case, I rather dun be!
Am I supposed to see to everything in this house? & even this kind of shit?
WTF is this kind of logic?
Ya u tink u're princess. Then mi? Ur servant/maid?
U only know how to say that I like to kick up a fuss over small things..
But have u ever put urself in my shoes? If it's u, how would u feel then?
Have u thought abt how I will feel? Do u noe how disappointed & hurt I am?
Having to do more I ald din complain. Every lil things oso need mi to see to I oso din say anything.
Everytime anything cropped up oso i wrong. & u? U'll only say u duno. U duno how to do these, u duno how to do that. U duno why.
Everything jus say duno win ald lox..
Then mi? I can only swallow my tears & try to forget.
I duno who to turn to & who will even understand.
I am really tired ald. But can I jus dun care? NO! Simply cos I'm the eldest again.
Why is everything so unfair?
Why my frens can dun care abt anything at home?
Why can they always go out all day long?
Why can they enjoy life as much as they wan now?
Why won't they have such shit happen to em?
Why must I face this alone?
Why must I do all this things?
Why must I be responsible for everything?
Why must I be the eldest? I hate to be one! I hate to be me.
WHY WHY WHY?!!! Fuck la.
Pardon me. I noe today is National day & I shldn't be feeling this way.
But I really cant help it. I need to vent everything out if not I will explode sooner or later.
I cried for a good 1h today cos I simply cant hold on any longer.
Felt abit better. But then.....nobody will understand.
Shucks. Today is jus not my day. Haix :'(
Nth can describe how i feel now. It jus sucks.
Feeling damn f. down.
Just leave mi alone.
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